Sarap Mong Patayin () (known as I'd Love to Kill) is a 2021 Philippine psychological comedy thriller film written and directed by Darryl Yap. It stars Lassy Marquez, Kit Thompson, Ariella Arida, Bob Jbeili and Marion Aunor. The film was the 12th film that Darryl Yap directed.
Noel, a middle-aged gay pest exterminator, has spent years being invisible, disrespected by his clients, dismissed by society, and living in the shadow of people more attractive or desirable than him. His only solace is his friendship with Krista, a gorgeous and self-assured architect who has no idea that Noel secretly envies her beauty and ease in getting attention. Using KristaâÂÂs photos without her consent, Noel creates fake profiles on a hookup app called Course, pretending to be her and luring in handsome, horny men for amusement and validation.
One day, Noel matches with Yael, a chiseled, charming gym rat whose smoldering eyes hide a far more twisted personality. Yael seems too perfect, and when âÂÂKristaâ (NoelâÂÂs catfish profile) arranges to meet him, Noel and the real Krista end up confronting the mistake together. But itâÂÂs too late. Yael tracks them down. His obsession with the girl in the photos turns into something unhinged when he realizes heâÂÂs been tricked.
Yael isnâÂÂt just a scorned hookup. HeâÂÂs a predator. What starts as a confrontation becomes a trap. Yael drugs Noel and Krista, dragging them into his basement gym turned torture chamber, lined with plastic sheets and mirrors. He strips away their clothes and their dignity, taunting them about lies, identity, and the ugliness beneath beauty. Krista, despite being innocent, becomes the focal point of YaelâÂÂs rage, he blames her for being the âÂÂfaceâ that lured him.
Yael uses his gym equipment not for training, but for mutilation tying Noel to a weight bench and force-feeding him protein shakes laced with sedatives, injecting Krista with steroids while filming her deteriorating state. Blood stains the concrete floor as Yael punishes them for the deception. Yael forces Krista to look in the mirror while he slices her hair off slowly with a box cutter, telling her that beauty is a lie and pain is real.
But Noel, desperate and driven by guilt, manages to escape briefly. He fights back not like a hero, but like a cornered animal. He finds YaelâÂÂs stash of drugs and injects him with a cocktail of steroids and pesticides. As Yael convulses on the floor, foaming at the mouth, Noel smashes his face with a dumbbell over and over until thereâÂÂs nothing left but pulp.
Covered in blood, barely alive, Noel drags Krista out of the house. Sirens wail in the distance. But the nightmare doesnâÂÂt end cleanly. The authorities never believe the full story, not about the catfishing, not about YaelâÂÂs true nature. The media spins it as a loversâ quarrel gone wrong.
Noel is left scarred, both physically and emotionally. He deletes the app, burns the fake profiles, and lives in isolation. Krista, disfigured and traumatized, vanishes from public life. The final shot is Noel staring at his reflection in a mirror cracked with dried blood, whispering the line: âÂÂAng sarap mong patayinâÂÂ.
The film was released in the Philippines via streaming in Vivamax on October 15, 2021.