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I'm Only F**king Myself

I'm Only F**king Myself is the third studio album by English singer and songwriter Lola Young. Promoted by the singles "One Thing", "Not Like That Anymore", "D£aler", and "Spiders", the album was released 19 September 2025 through Island Records and charted at No. 3 on the UK Albums Chart. A planned deluxe version and tour were aborted following Young collapsing shortly after release.

History

I'm Only F**king Myself is Young's third album following My Mind Wanders and Sometimes Leaves Completely (2023) and This Wasn't Meant for You Anyway (2024). The latter featured her breakthrough single "Messy", which topped the UK singles chart. Promotion for that album was interrupted by Young requiring a spell in rehab following a cocaine relapse. In May 2025, she released the single "One Thing", a song about only wanting casual sex from men that peaked at No. 19 on the UK singles chart. The song's music video was later nominated for Best Pop Video at the 2025 UK Music Video Awards.

Young announced I'm Only F**king Myself in June 2025. That month, she released the single "Not Like That Anymore", which she had written in New York City the day she stopped using drugs. The following month, she released the single "D£aler", a farewell address to her drug dealer. Elton John praised the song when she appeared on his Rocket Hour podcast and bet a house that it would top the UK singles chart, only to lose it after it peaked at No. 27 instead. A further single, the ballad "Spiders", also made the UK charts.

Young released I'm Only F**king Myself on 19 September; the album's asterisks were hers. The album discussed the many ways she abused herself including rumination, whirlwind romances, cocaine addiction and the sex she was using to replace the highs after withdrawing, and her use of her dildo and her ex-boyfriend; Samuele Vilori of Billboard Italia summed these up as "all the ways she fucks herself". I'm Only F**king Myself also discussed her bisexuality and her struggles with schizoaffective disorder and attention deficit hyperactivity disorder. The album cover features Young posing with a sex doll wearing a baby bonnet and a jester's collar, and was dubbed one of the worst of 2025 by Exclaim!.

The album was promoted with the focus track "Post Sex Clarity"; the pair charted at numbers 3 and 60 on the UK singles chart and the UK Albums Chart. A deluxe version of the album and a tour visiting the UK and North America in late 2025 and South America and Europe in 2026 were planned to promote the album, though these were aborted after Young cancelled all public activity shortly after release after collapsing mid-concert.

Track listing

Note

  • A bonus track titled "Blisters" appears on certain vinyl pressings of the album.
  • "Dealer" is stylised "d£aler".
  • "How Long Will It Take to Walk a Mile?", "Dealer", "Why Do I Feel Better When I Hurt You?", "Who F**king Cares?" and "Ur an Absolute C Word" are stylised in lower case.
  • "F**k Everyone", "Spiders", "Sad Sob Story! :)" and "Can We Ignore It? :(" are stylised in all caps.

Personnel

Credits adapted from Tidal.

Musicians

  • Lola Young – programming (1), vocals (2–13), guitar (13), spoken word (14)
  • Mandisa Apena – spoken word (1)
  • William Brown – drums (2, 5, 6, 8, 12), bass synthesiser (2, 5), synthesiser (3, 6), keyboards (3), pump organ (4, 7, 11), piano (6, 12), organ (7–9), percussion (7, 8), Rhodes (7), guitar (9, 10), piano (9), bass (11)
  • Jared Solomon – guitar (2–6, 8, 10, 12), programming (2–4, 6, 9); sampler, synthesiser (2); drums (3, 4, 7, 10), bass (4, 6, 10), percussion (4, 9, 11), electric guitar (7); acoustic guitar, drum programming (11)
  • Carter Lang – bass (3, 7–9); programming, synthesiser (3); guitar (8)
  • Conor Dickinson – acoustic guitar (7), guitar (9, 12), electric guitar (11)
  • Dylan Buzz Gold – drums (8)
  • Jojo Faught – guitar (8)
  • Adrian Simon – acoustic guitar (11)
  • Conner West – pedal steel guitar (11)
  • Tia Shek – spoken word (14)

Technical

  • Nathan Phillips – mixing (2–12)
  • Dale Becker – mastering
  • Lui Guimaraes – engineering (2, 11)
  • John Rooney – engineering (3, 7–9, 12)
  • Maxime Le Guil – engineering (4–6)
  • Madison Claridge – engineering (10)
  • Robert Sellens – engineering (10)
  • Lola Young – engineering (13)
  • Adam Burt – mastering assistance
  • Katie Harvey – mastering assistance
  • Noah McCorkle – mastering assistance
  • Michael Deano – engineering assistance (3, 7–9, 12)
  • Lucas Glastra – engineering assistance (4–6)
  • Rémy Dumelz – engineering assistance (4–6)
  • Georgia Allen – engineering assistance (10)
  • Jan Ashwell – engineering assistance (10)

Charts

References